There's always a fat kid with a ton of heart on the basketball team that continues to play no matter how exhausted he get. Even when they're down 30 points, and they haven't won a game all season, he keeps going until he can finally go no further. There is a point where he just stops and says "I don't want to play anymore." It's not the fact that he feels like he's failed--he has plenty of other talents. It's not even that he wants to give up, he just realizes there is a point when he's fighting a losing battle. Well, that is my newest metaphor for dating.
I don't want to play anymore. I've said it before, but I absolutely hate the dating game (and no, I am not talking about the t.v. game show). I try and I try to succeed at it. I keep coming back to it thinking that this is going to be my time to shine. Well, this is me quitting the game.
I want my ONE and ONLY, and I want someone who wants me as HER one and only. I want a woman (and yes, I mean woman--not girls. Girls play games, women are for real) who wants to spend HER time with me. I want hear our laughter and see our smiles when we are TOGETHER. It's what love and relationships are-- going for walks, talking about our days and future and dreams-- NONE of this shopping around until someone else comes along or "keeping my options open" bullshit. Oh, we all know how the "Grass is always greener..." always works out (yes, I mean that in a sarcastic smart ass kind of way). In fact, I had a friend tell me that earlier today. She tried to keep three guys around at any given time so if one lets her down, she can call the other. I've heard other people say it before (both guys and girls), so I am sure it is a fairly common occurrence. To be honest, it infuriates me. I've been the other guy before, and it's not a good feeling. It's heart-breaking enough when she chooses someone else over you. Dragging someone along while you're "shopping" just adds insult to injury to one's heart. If you don't want to be with someone, let them go--it's heartless to drag them along when you know damned well how they feel about you. I know I sure as hell don't want to get my heart broke again.
That get's to my next game I can't stand, and nor will I play. Why do people think it's cute to play stupid and naive? Really? I know little kids that love to play the "Iiiiii don't know ;) (that semi-colon parenthesis winking smiley thing is representative as a cutesy smile of a little kid biting their finger cartoonishly while saying "I don't know")" game, but most people I know grew out of it when they graduated the fifth grade.
And, FINALLY, I am tired of being around people that bring me down. It's almost as bad as dating. Like I've said, I'm nowhere close to perfect, but do treat everyone with respect and kindness. I refuse to associate myself with people who are constantly degrading others. Really, do you feel better about yourself because your punk ass treats a less fortunate person like they are worthless?? Or that you can be rude to the lady who works at Walmart or 7-11?? You're just another asshole who can only be respected by other assholes who drip to your level. You might as well collect a bunch of teddy bears and dolls since they will be about the only ones who truly respect you.
Moral of the randomness: treat people with kindness and respect. Love and be loved.
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