Songs and Memories

Okay, so I meant for my last post to be semi-romantic and inspirational to myself, but it wasn't so much. Josh requested that I write one that was more for his entertainment, so I will try to say "penis" or something in this post.

When I work, I think. Well, today I was helping my dad clean out the ditches from the tit-tall grass that has overtaken. I started thinking of songs and memories. I have always been amazed how a song or a band can be tied to a person, place, or event. There are bands I love just because it reminds me of a certain time in life, and there are others I dislike because it reminds me of a person.

I remember going to work with my Grandpa Hatch to check on the sulfur docks when I was a kid. There is a little shack by the railroad tracks just outside of Powell where we stopped so Grandpa could check on everything. I remember him telling me to watch out for rattlesnakes. I was just excited that we saw some rabbits that had gotten into the building. Later, as we drove by the Homesteader Park baseball fields, Kathy Mattea's "Ball and Chain" and later on that trip Randy Travis's "On the Other Hand" played. I've always tied those songs to my grandpa.

I remember going pheasant hunting with Dad and David over at Yellowtail. We always leave to go hunting well before the butt-crack of dawn. In between sleep and staring at the stars I recall hearing a "Heart Like a Wheel" and "Broken Arrow" songs on the radio. I had them alternatingly stuck in my head all day as we parked below the old corrals (before they closed the road to traffic). I still remember taking pictures with David in our camo by an old cottonwood tree.

Smashing Pumpkin's "Bullet With Butterfly Wings" with Niederhauser and Casey at a wrestling meet in Thermopolis in high school. Ryan introducing me to Bush on our way back from the Jackson Hole cross-country trip--I couldn't get enough of "Come Down". In fact, it is still one of my favorite songs. I had to buy The Wallflowers at state track my senior year. I listened to the CD the whole way home from Casper.

I had an ex-girlfriend from years ago. I remember driving in my old Hyundai Elantra with Ryan and Kix. It was early in our relationship and we were listening to the newest (at the time) Offspring album. When the song came on that whose lyrics states "My friend has a girlfriend and he hates that bitch....", my ex said, "Wow, that's real nice." I just laughed. She was my first love and she loved Metallica. I still can't figure out why she thought Lars Ulrich was hot. Anyways, after we broke up, I hated Metallica.

When I moved to Oregon, there were two songs that I heard over and over again on the radio. "Better Man" by Pearl Jam and "Hemorrhage" by Fuel. It was a huge change for me. These songs still remind me of the significance of the move to Oregon.

I could go on and on about what songs remind me of what. I hope all of you have songs that bring you joy just by the memory it holds.


Oh, yeah, "penis"

I Dream...

Well, I got off from work early today, so I thought I would take the time to blog a wee little bit (take the term "wee" loosely, I tend to ramble once I get started so bear with me).

As you all know, I am a hopeless romantic. (I am pretty sure a few of my other blogs started out with that exact same sentence.  I guess I wanted to make you all truly understand how hopeless of a romantic I am.) My dreams are nearly Shakespearean. Not so much the tragic comedy, but the love story behind it. The daydreams of my youth are no more (since it is highly unlikely that I will become an Olympic runner or work for NASA's space program). Falling in love and being loved has long been a desire of mine (hence the reason I write about it). I now daydream of being in a loving relationship and having a family with the woman of my dreams.

I have an idea in my head how I want my relationship to be with the love of my life. I've even thought of all the flaws and obstacles that a relationship must go through. Strange to dream of the hardships of a relationship?? To me, it's not strange at all. Hardships are part of being in a relationship. They make the relationship stronger--if you truly love each other that is.


I long to fall in love. I long for her to love me back. I will forget about all other women, and she will forget all other men. I want her to think about me when we are apart. I want her to long for my touch. I want her to call just to hear my voice. I want to laugh with her, and cry with her. I want us to fight, just so we can make-up later. I want to kiss her and make love to her. I want her to know that I will always be there for her through thick and thin. I want her to know that I will do anything to please her. 

I dream of marriage, and coming home from work to our children playing and running to the door to greet me. My wife runs up and kisses me with a smile. I would do anything to make her smile. In our home, there will be plenty of hugs, kisses, and "I love you"'s everyday. Knowing all my wife's little quirks will only make me love her more. There will be nothing we can't accomplish as long as we are together. Our love will last forever. On our deathbeds we will still gaze at one another with the same love.

A life without love is no life at all. I hope true love finds me soon. I am a dreamer and will continue to dream of you, my love.